Today Sparrow and I attended a Music Together demo class.
These kinds of things are hard for me, because I have relatively severe social anxiety. Thus, if I am not perfect, and if Sparrow doesn't act perfectly, I get panicky. It's hard to let go. So when Sparrow screamed bloody murder whenever the music stopped, or tried to open the door to leave the room, or *ahem* soiled his diaper right as class started, I had some struggles.
But ultimately we survived, and even had fun. I signed us up to start classes in the middle of September. I feel it is important for Sparrow and I to be in a class because it's something we can participate in and work through together outside of our daily routine and outside of the house.
Music has been a very important influence in my life starting from the day I was born and I have always wanted to share the joy it brings me with my children. Sparrow seems to have inherited my musical aptitude, thank goodness (sorry Hawk, we love you anyway), and I am thrilled to have something I can share with him. Sparrow usually goes completely still when music starts playing, listens for a moment and then just continues listening or else starts dancing. If I turn music on during a tantrum, he will usually stop in mid-scream to listen.
Currently his favorite song is "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star." Since I sing it approximately 10,000 times a day, it is now my least favorite song. I really need to think up new words for the tune! I don't have a favorite song because they are all my favorite, but my favorite lullaby to sing to Sparrow is "Suo Gan," a beautiful Welsh song. You can listen to it here on YouTube.
Music-talk aside, today has been somewhat grim. I went to the hospital today to get registered, have a blood draw and an EKG. The fact that I will be under the knife very soon is starting to worry me, and get in the way of plans I have in my beady little brain.
So much to do, so little time.